Hello dear readers. ( I know I'm taking to no one)
So it's about time I talk about myself. Basically there's not much to tell, but also enough to make my this post lengthy enough. How should I do it? By making points or just writing a para? I guess the para would be better, so here we go.
I am Ejaz Hussain. I am 19 years old. I have done my FSc (college or 12 yrs of study). Basically we have school here till class of 10 called matric or SSC (secondary school), then for two years only we have colleges called FSc of HSSC (higher secondary school). Then we'd continue our graduation in Universities and further than that studies as well like M.phil, PhD etc. Actually I did my college last year in 2015 and I couldn't secure admission in any university because my grades were low, so I lost an academic year. This year I tried again and with my improvement exams failed, my grades remained the same and yet to this date, I've not secured any admission anywhere. Tho I did get a scholarship somewhere which I stepped on and which I regret but we'd talk about it in any other post. So that's my qualification of so far.
Let's continue further... I'm currently single. I've had girlfriends... about 3. But all of them have now left me but I'm still there for them. Sometimes they do text and I do reply, we talk but then we stop again. But since my third girlfriend, Farida which I also had a crush on, left me... I'm in great misery. I miss her a LOT. But she happens to like a new boy now. That make sense because she never loved me. All the time we were together, I was in process to making her love me and it never happened. It does hurt to have switched three times, and you know why? For all three times I went to them, and said that I liked them and convinced them to be friends and then won their trust... and finally proposed then to be my girlfriend because by that time we were in love expect the third one, and we moved along... and broke up at the end. Everytime among all these three times, it happened this way. However, I'm single and desperately looking for someone who I could, once again, share my feelings and go along quite a distance, together. These were the two sad parts of my life that I'm done telling: studies and relations. Now let's move to other things.
I'm a Gemini and a faithful beleiver of zodiac truths and tellings. I do like being a Gemini, tho not always. But I've got other fav stars from the zodiac other than mine, they are (top fav and continues): Leo, Pisces, Cancer, Aquarius, Gemini. Tho I do like how a Gemini is as I get to know their trades and how amazingly they match with my characteristics, there are others sign's behaviours that I'd like to have like a Leo's attitude, always high and positive.
Now my likes and hobbies. Music, cricket, movies, writing and also newly added novel reading are the things I could think of for this section. Cricket is the sports I played since I was a kid and I still like it tho that spark and play isn't with me anymore. Music! I love it. Songs is what I mean by music to be specific. I love songs of all sorts and mostly those that I could relate to myself to my mood that I'm currently in. Because our language is Urdu here, national language, so we do listen to Bollywood music quite often and it's great, but I listen to Hollywood music a lot too, esp recently. I love both of these musics. Then movies... it's been a couple of years since I've started watching movies and I've watched lots of movies during these years. And I love to watch them even more as I continue watching them more, so there's no stopping to that. Pursuit of happiness is a movie I could think of as my fav right now, but believe me there are more on that list. Writing is what I came to know a year ago probably, and I came to know that I was quite good at it. I'm sensitive and versatile at the same time, so writing about anything is found quite easy by me most of the time, esp about the topics that are with more feelings and thoughts involved. Other than that, I do like writing. It's a way of crying in silence.
Reading... let me say it short and sweet. After reading the novel by Elif Shafak, The Forty Rules Of Love, I was into reading more and more. I loved it so much. It's one of the best things that happened to me this year.
Now something about my personality. I'd be short at them because I really don't to explain the inner me. I'm an introvert to start things off, which I came to know quite recently. Before knowing it, I thought I was mentally ill or something. I'm very very sensitive, tho two 'very' won't show how sensitive I am. I feel things and never talk about them so I'm really filled inside. Is it a curse, I ask me sometimes? To be so sensitive about everything, always, and yet to be an introvert that can't find anyone to talk those feelings with. I guess it is. I suffer a lot, ever day without anyone knowing it. These two characteristics really makes my world a lonely place where you won't find many people. And being a Gemini, I really feel the need to be around people as much as I can... so as I said, a curse. Anyhow, I'd talk more about me as a human being as I continue writing.
Finally, a short para about my family. Mom and Dad, thankful always to have them around, and four brothers (me the youngest of them) and two sisters. So my parents aren't educated. Mom is a house wife and father a labour. The eldest of us siblings is my sister, and she's married with two children, a boy and a girl. Sadly, she lives with us and she's a widow. Her husband passed away in a suicide blast with more than a 100 of others. Then there's my eldest brother, a former soldier, now a worker in Saudi. Then there's Akram who's in Australia working currently but would start studying on a scholarship there soon at Adelaide Uni. Iftikhar is next, and he's doing CA course in Karachi, the biggest city of Pakistan and one the biggest in whole world. Then me, and lastly my lil sister Kubra. She's in school class 8th. That sums up our family. Certainly I'd talk more about them in further posts, explaining them more and showing their effect on my life.
So this sums up my this post. I'd now re read it because I miss words and misspell them sometimes, and then punish it. Write soon! (: