As I sit here, alone...
Take sips from my drink
And feel the stillness around me,
I feel me and me alone.
I guess this is where I exist
Exist as a whole
Where the silence doesn't protest
As I share my thoughts
Where the breezes accompany me
Yet no anxiety I feel to please them in return
Although no laughs or loud chats
I feel much heard and pleased inside.
I sit here alone, and have a silent chat with myself
I see how my day was
I calm my thoughts and feel the Now
I bring peace back from the rushness of outside world
Thus I appreciate the little things,
Things that curve the ends of my lips
And glistens my eyes.
I feel lonliness around me
For there's none to know 'Me', this me.
Yet it's better...
For people to know, this sacredness would fade
And I'd become what I am - before others.
This is special, however lonely.
This fills me, a quiet time where I exist and I exist alone.
May sound selfish, but no one else rules over my this existence.
I am the king; I am the servant.
I'm the lover; I'm the loved.
No aches; no expectations; no bad feelings
All holy, all peaceful, all Love out there.
A place so calm, my this world is.
A place so pure, so empty of drama and replete with calmness.
A place all mine, where I exist alone!
But to know it's only half the whole, yet whole still...
I wait for her to complete this one day.
To hear me through stillness, and with no words
For words may fail me in what I want to say
A she as majestical as me
A relationship that brings no pain, and love of its own - but just her
For where I exist, love is all there is,
Enough for both of us to take from and to add to.
No shoulder I miss to rest my head
But I believe that shoulder would make this world more paradisaic, and me braver
As we'd sit at the end of the day
All we'd feel is Now and all the glories that Now withholds
No fear, no regrets - for we have each other Now, and the Now that follows.
But for now, I am as whole as I need be...
May she come, may not
But my world doesn't depend on it, neither my this self
For love is well received here, and so is well felt.
This is where I exist as whole
As a person in God's presence.